TIN 79

“…”

The smile disappeared from his face. His eyes, almost white, instantly froze cold. With a chillingly expressionless face, he warned icily.

“Keep mouthing off.”

The pheromones that seeped out seemed to choke my throat. The scent was sickeningly sweet to the point where it could melt my brain, but it felt as sharp as a well-honed knife. It was so threatening that I felt as if my whole skin and the depths of my lungs were being slashed into pieces.

I knew it was suicidal to confront an alpha emitting such pheromones. But even knowing this, I couldn’t suppress my indignation. I felt an urge to scratch his insides as much as possible.

“You’re the one who told me to do it.”

I said, deliberately using a nonchalant tone to speak to him. If that was what he wanted, I should give it to him. As he said, I was prepared to do anything if I could get information about Yoon Ji-soo. In fact, if Theo had given me proper information, I would have slept with him long ago.

“Anyway, he said we should meet again…Ugh!”

My upper body toppled over. He grabbed my shoulders and pushed me down on my back. He pressed one hand on the bed and used the other to firmly push down on my chest.

“Meet again?”

“…”

Why did that faint smile seem more frightening than his expressionless face? The pheromones intensified as the distance between us suddenly closed. He blinked his eyes that were hidden in the shadows and let out a long breath.

“Alright then, I guess I’ll have to help you.”

His tone suggested he was being extremely considerate. Of course, his sunken eyes told a different story.

“If you’re going to put out for Father, you need practice.”

“…!”

Unlike his gentle tone, he roughly flipped my body over. Then he grabbed the back of my head and forcibly pressed it into the bed. Before I knew it, I was struggling with my face buried in the pillow.

“Mmph…!”

“Stay still.”

I reflexively tried to move, but I couldn’t budge an inch. Earlier my breath was blocked by pheromones, now it was blocked by the pillow. Joo Do-hwa easily subdued me and used his other hand to stroke down my back.

“Hiss…”

I shuddered from head to toe. His hand, slithering down like a snake, suddenly dug into the waistband of my pants. Unfortunately, since it was elastic clothing, there was nothing standing in the way of his large hand invading.

His finger slid along the cleft of my buttocks and firmly pressed against the closed entrance.

“…Mmph, ngh!”

His thick-knuckled finger forcibly spread the entrance. Since I wasn’t properly relaxed, let alone wet, the sensation of something entering was excessively vivid. I helplessly clenched tightly below, but Joo Do-hwa only sneered against my nape.

“How do you expect to take other men when you’re this tight?”

Unlike me, who was completely tense, his calm voice was exceptionally generous. As if he was really concerned. Of course, his touch was anything but gentle.

“Ugh…”

The finger that had forcibly entered didn’t consider my situation and randomly stirred inside. It was a terrible feeling, but helplessly pinned down, I couldn’t offer any resistance. The best I could do was turn my head to the side to find an opening to breathe, feeling like I was about to pass out at any moment now.

“Ugh…hah…”

However, in the breath I barely managed to catch, I only felt Joo Do-hwa’s pheromones more intensely. I wanted to shout at him to let go, but all that came out of my mouth were choked groans.

“What’s wrong? I said I’d help you.”

Joo Do-hwa didn’t spare me and kept moving his hand. Every time he rotated his wrist, I felt a burning sensation from the friction on my inner walls.

Joo Do-hwa, who had increased from one finger to two, spread his fingers apart.

“If you need more dick, you should say so. How are you already this tight after just a few hours?”

“Argh…!”

I had sex with him until dawn today, and of course, it hadn’t even been a full day yet. You’d think I’d be somewhat used to it by now, but due to my body’s tension, it was just painful.

“Do you think Father will loosen you up like I do?”

“Ugh…”

I shook my head. It wasn’t to answer Joo Do-hwa’s question, but to express that I wanted him to stop. Even though it was just his fingers, I felt as breathless as when he put his thing in.

“If he just rams it in, it’s only a matter of time before you become a cripple.”

However, he finally increased to three fingers and twirled his wrist. It didn’t seem to be bleeding, but the creepy sensation still rushed in like a flood. To the point where I thought it might be better if there was some blood, at least then this whole ordeal might end up being a bit smoother.

“Hah, ugh…”

I tried to relax my body, but even that wasn’t easy. As I panted and struggled to relax, a rush of self-loathing and irritation washed over me right then.

I felt wronged in so many ways. Why was he only lashing out at me? What more should I have done? I only did what you told me to do, so why do you always react like this?

But instead of standing up, I turned my face back to the side and buried my face in my pillow. I clutched the covers tightly with both hands, anger rising to my throat. My breath caught in my throat and my eyes felt like they were going to pop out of my head, but I bit down on his lip hard, not caring.

I shouldn’t have.

Why do I make mistakes and regret them every time?

I promised myself that I wouldn’t fight this bastard, that I would lie flat down and just let him do whatever he wanted to me.

I had rarely made a mistake like this in my life. I wasn’t the nicest person, but I knew my situation better than anyone. I realized early on that there was nothing good in having a personality, and I knew that pride didn’t feed you. The first and last mistake I made before coming here was beating up Wang Wei, but that was okay because I had the confidence to run away from Oceans.

“…Hng.”

But why couldn’t I do that in front of  Joo Do-hwa?

I knew I couldn’t escape right now, and I knew things weren’t going to end well, but I kept making the same mistakes over and over again. I should just dismiss what he says as bullshit and let it go through one ear and out the other, but instead, I’m scratching my head, retorting to his provocations, and calling him names.

“….”

Just as the taste of blood filled my mouth from biting my lip so hard, the surroundings became quiet. The blood rushing to my head was so intense that I didn’t even notice that I was holding my breath.

“…ah.”

The tiny gasp didn’t come from me, it came from  Joo Do-hwa. He opened his mouth as if to say something, then quickly pulled his fingers out of my deeply penetrated hole and flipped me over, just as he had done earlier.

“….”

“….”

Our gazes met in the air. I couldn’t see his face properly through the tears that had been streaming down my cheeks. I blinked through blurry eyes and gasped for air, tears trickling down my temples.

 Joo Do-hwa looked at me and asked in a calm voice.

“Why are you crying?”

“…”

Didn’t this asshole already know the answer to that question now? Who was the one who turned people over like a dog and poked around underneath them without care?

“What’s so wrong with you, huh?”

Ironically, it sounded like he was trying to soothe me, and as soon as I heard those words, a surge of unfairness welled up inside me. The resentments that I had barely swallowed were so full that they would overflow if you just touched them.

That’s why. I sucked in a sharp breath and pursed my lips. I had planned to keep quiet, but I had at least tried to speak up for myself.

“…You heard it all.”

I blinked, closed, and opened my eyes, tears streaming down my cheeks. I’d only cried a few times in my life, but since I’d walked into this house, I hadn’t been able to control myself. Half physiological tears, half rage. I couldn’t even refute his bullshit about me crying so much because I was from the sea.

“Your aide has buttons on his shirt, too, ha…that asshole has buttons on his shirt, too…”

I resented everyone above me, from  Joo Do-hwa to Henry, who I had met earlier, to the chairman who called me in and made ridiculous demands. How much thought did I put into it, and how tense was I when I got out of that situation? And this guy, who knows everything, is standing on top of my head and picking a fight.

“Why the fuck? Acting like you don’t know….”

I clenched my teeth and squeezed my eyes shut. My mind was filled with a constant stream of curse words, but only a few of them could be uttered. I didn’t realize that even in this situation, my words could prove to be suicidal.

“You know you’re doing this.”

“….”

“The things I said, the things I said there…about not giving you those pills, about me being your hyung, all that stuff…”

I said it with a certain amount of conviction, but it doesn’t change the fact that the words I was saying were a gamble with my life.

If my head had been blown off in that room, I wouldn’t have had to put up with his tyranny here. There was even a small part of me that thought it would have been better that way.

“But you’re still doing this, am I wrong?”

“Hyung.”

I opened my mouth calmly, and Joo Do-hwa swept a hand through my sweaty bangs. The unnecessarily affectionate touch was followed by a thorough wiping of the tears that moistened the corners of my eyes. Then he cupped my chin and lowered his eyes.

“That room can’t be eavesdropped.”