BHB 57

“What are you doing so messily…”

“It’s mine.”

“… What?”

“… When we have sex, even down to the one finger, one strand of hair, it’s all mine.”

“……”

“So don’t avoid it.”

“……”

“Get used to it.”

It was unclear whether this was a warning or an advice, but one thing was certain. That is when they engage in this act, Lee Taegang is excessively persistent. Even he, who has spent more than half of his life with him, finds it unfamiliar.

Lee Taegang seemed to be feeling the urge to climax, as he tilted his chin up and grasped Yeowon’s waist even more strongly. 

Feeling the increased pressure that kept him from moving, Yeowon also felt the urge to climax, and his lower body tensed up.

“Mmgh…!”

“Ugh… Haa…!”

It seemed that Lee Taegang also felt the strength inside him, as he let out the stifled moan he had been holding back and released right then. The lukewarm warmth that flooded the inside was soon followed by thick semen bursting out from Yeowon’s erect dick as well.

Despite having climaxed, the milky fluid continued to ooze out from the inserted dick still inside. Yeowon wanted to immediately demand that he pull out due to the itching sensation in his groin, but he had no strength left and leaned his body against Lee Taegang’s upper body. He couldn’t think of anything. Even the sense of guilt that would have normally rushed in was gone, and Yeowon closed his eyes in fatigue. Even as he drifted off to sleep, Lee Taegang’s warmth remained vivid. And so did his smoldering gaze that had been watching him throughout the act.

**

After repeated sessions like that, the normally sturdy Yeowon ended up bedridden for two days. He hurt all over his body as if he had been beaten up, and shivered with chills, lying wrapped in a blanket and sleeping constantly for two days straight. 

Whenever he opened his eyes, Lee Taegang was there by his side. Whether he was caring for him or just watching over him, every time he woke up, Lee Taegang was leaning against the headboard reading a book or with his hand on his forehead, checking his temperature. If he asked for water, he would bring it to him, and if he said he was hungry, he would order all his favorite foods for him to choose from.

Then in the middle of the night when he was groaning and sweating, he felt a hand wiping him. He was being cared for. This was not the first time this had happened. When he got into a fight in high school and was severely injured, and when he caught a serious flu going around, it was always Lee Taegang by his side. Yes, only him. It felt like the old Lee Taegang had returned, and Yeowon was able to fall into a peaceful sleep, feeling a rare sense of relief.

He had even endured the crazy act of having sex with a friend for this, to get the constant Lee Taegang back by his side. To not lose his one and only. Because he couldn’t even imagine him without Lee Taegang, Yeowon rationalized his choice for the past few days. He had to. No, it seemed he had to.

“Phone.” In the morning when he had barely recovered, Yeowon reached out as soon as he woke up. 

Lee Taegang then placed the charged phone in his hand. Checking the accumulated messages he hadn’t seen in the past few days, there were missed calls and messages from his friends and even his high school classmates who he regularly kept in touch with.

“Drink.”

As he was only scanning the contacts, a warm mug was held out in front of him.

“Thank you.” After taking a sip of the warm liquid and expelling the remaining chills, he felt his condition improve a little.

“How’s your body?”

“Much better.”

Even though he said he was fine, Lee Taegang still placed his hands on his forehead and face in various places to check if he had a fever.

“I told you I’m fine.”

“I have to believe it since you were groaning for two days.”

“Whose fault was that?” Taken aback by the retort, Yeowon looked up at Lee Taegang standing blankly in front of the bed.

“What’s with the disgusting worry.”

Furrowing his brows, Yeowon rebuked him, but no matter how Lee Taegang reacted, he took the mug back from his hand and placed it back on the shelf.

“Why wouldn’t I be worried when you were bedridden for two days just from that little bit?”

That was a bit embarrassing. When it came to physical strength and health, he was confident in himself more than anyone else. To have been lying in bed for two days just from a few sessions of sex – it was so embarrassing to him that he was afraid someone might find out.

“I was already feeling a bit unwell before that, you know. It’s not like I got that way just from that few times.”

“Wobbling around and acting so big-mouthed.”

“Ah, forget it. Stop talking about it.”

After two days, Yeowon got out of bed. His whole body was itchy and sluggish, making him feel crazy. It was rare for him to be bedridden like this.

“Wanna run together like old times?” It was a perfect day for exercising, and Yeowon spoke up cheerfully, having regained his condition. 

But Lee Taegang let out a sardonic laugh as if he couldn’t believe it. “You don’t plan on going to school?”

“Ah.” Yeowon let out a brief sigh as he suddenly remembered the fact he had completely forgotten.

“You missed all your classes for the past two days.”

“I was sick, what was I supposed to do?”

“Do you even plan on graduating?”

He had even considered dropping out after the falling out with Lee Taegang, so he no longer had much attachment to it. But if he quit school right away, he wouldn’t have anything to do, and that was also a problem. He wasn’t future-oriented either, knowing that if he dropped out, he’d just end up constantly drinking and going to PC rooms with the other kids, so he couldn’t make up his mind.

“I don’t know. I only went to school because of you, you know.” Yeowon took off the pajama top he was wearing and tossed it aside. “I’ll shower first.”

As he stripped off his clothes like shedding a shell and headed to the bathroom, Lee Taegang’s gaze followed him from behind. Even though he was as bare as usual, after being intimate a few times, he felt a subtle discomfort that was bothering him. But he stubbornly ignored it and immersed himself in the pouring water. 

Unnecessary thoughts didn’t suit him.

**

Though he had tried to act normal, his body may have recovered, but he was actually quite troubled. Engaging in such simple sex and then casually carrying on with a friend was actually an incredibly difficult thing. But these trivial emotions would eventually become numb over time, so Yeowon resolved to endure it. Even if the vivid image of Lee Taegang beckoning him and gripping his waist suddenly appeared, or the ecstasy that felt like his brain was melting continued to scratch at his heart.

As usual, he walked to school with Lee Taegang and lightly greeted and chatted with the group they hung around with. The busy Do Yongjae was rushing between the department office, seemingly busy with class preparations, and Cho Suchan passed out, reeking of alcohol as if he had once again indulged heavily last night. The closest underclassman, Lim Yoona, showed his photos of a modeling shoot he had booked and asked for Yeowon’s advice. 

And Lee Taegang sat next to him, mindlessly fiddling with his phone. Occasionally when their classmates and seniors greeted them, he would respond casually.

“To be honest, I’m a bit worried about the College of Physical Education. I know it’s awkward to say this in front of a senior, but a lot of the guys in our school’s physical education department have… ‘sex partners’. They even introduce them to each other and stuff.”

“What, what?” Yeowon got startled, stumbling over his words as the specific term caught his ear.

“It’s actually well-known. Even that hot guy from our school’s physical ed department who got famous on Instagram made a ‘sex partner’ through DMs, and it all got exposed, so he’s on leave right now.”

“… Really?” Yeowon awkwardly smiled and responded, though the term ‘sex partner’ was persistently pricking at his ear. But he made sure not to reveal any signs of discomfort.

“But I mean… having a sex partner isn’t necessarily a bad thing, is it? As long as it’s just… you know, consensual physical stuff and all.”

“It’s a difference in values, I guess. But the issue with that guy was that he was doing that ‘stuff’ with multiple people through those DMs.”

“Ah- I see. Okay then.”

“So what do you think, sunbae? As a fellow guy, you seem to be quite interested in me, and I don’t dislike it, but I can’t stand those guys who party so disgustingly, you know?”

“How would I know how I seem to you?”

“But I heard you’ve been partying a lot, right?”

“Partying? What partying?”

“Do Yongjae told me that the manager of this super famous club in Gangnam is your high school best friend. I heard he even has tattoos all over his face.”

“That’s prejudice, you know. Just because someone goes to clubs and has tattoos on their face, it doesn’t mean they party disgustingly or anything like that.”

“Can you take me along next time? I heard he even reserves VIP rooms and stuff. The guys-only good places, where they try to pick up women to mess around with, right?”

“Hey, what do you mean, ‘women’—”

Unable to firmly say no, Yeowon trailed off. It was a natural assumption, after all. When guys go to clubs, they don’t just drink, do they? But those days of partying were long gone for her. Since being discharged, he hadn’t even tried to fool around with women. 

Unconsciously, Yeowon glanced at Lee Taegang beside him.

“Even though our Yeowon acts all prim and proper, he used to be quite the wild one back in the day.” That’s when Do Yongjae suddenly appeared from behind and naturally inserted himself into the conversation, having overheard everything.

“What nonsense are you about to spew this time?”

“Remember when we were freshmen? You were always having us set you up on blind dates and stuff, and then you’d come back with a new girlfriend every time.”

…Well, he wasn’t exactly wrong about that, so Yeowon couldn’t strongly deny it. Back then, he was just barely twenty, and in other words, the partying phase. He would date someone suitable, and break up when the time came, living that ‘don’t stop the incoming, don’t block the outgoing’ type of lifestyle that Do Yongjae always teased him about.

But it’s not like that was a crime, right? Weren’t they all just living and enjoying that time? He thought of relationships that way too – just a fleeting amusement at that young age. Since the legal ways to indulge at that age were limited, relationships were the only form of entertainment.