TIN 45

At first, I thought it was a joke. Just another one of his usual whims or a prank bordering on harassment. If not that, then some kind of test.

I thought he would soon take back his words and laugh smugly, telling me to take a look at my face. If he insisted on sleeping here again today, I was confident I could just let it go and fall asleep as if nothing had happened. I was prepared to ignore it, pretending I hadn’t heard the usual nonsense he was spewing.

But unfortunately, Joo Do-hwa’s suggestion was not an empty promise. It was never a suggestion in the first place, but an order, so I didn’t even have the right to refuse. All I could do was look at him with a startled face and ask, “…You’re serious?”

“Of course.”

He answered indifferently without batting an eyelash. It was as if he was questioning why I would ask about something so obvious, and there was no hint of amusement in the questions that followed.

“What? Are you picky about the men you sleep with. Even for someone like you?”

I wasn’t offended by the insulting remark. I had been treated like this many times before, and Joo Do-hwa was actually quite gentlemanly in comparison. It was better than someone suddenly grabbing my hair, calling me a rag, and asking if I was going to choose my cum flavor like a slut.

But I couldn’t help but feel puzzled.

“I thought you didn’t bring me here for sex.”

That was the issue. You said you had no intention of having sex with me. Didn’t you say there was no point in sleeping with a beta who doesn’t even get wet?

“Yeah, I didn’t.”

Joo Do-hwa readily answered and let out a snort of laughter. It was closer to a sneer directed at me.

“Do you consider putting it in your mouth as sex too?”

You’re so naive in strange ways. He muttered in a voice that was exceedingly calm. There was no anticipation for the act that was about to take place, nor any tension about the unfamiliar act. He even looked a little bored, as he always did.

“That’s not the point.”

What are you trying to make me do then?

The purpose of those who want to put it in my mouth was usually similar. It was either a pathetic desire for conquest or a filthy sexual desire. Occasionally, there was some half-baked affection, but even that ultimately boiled down to one of the two.

However, in the way Joo Do-hwa looked at me, there had never been anything similar to that. His gaze, as indifferent as looking at an object, only occasionally reflected things like interest or curiosity. In the first place, what he wanted from me was the role of a ‘hyung,’ not sexual satisfaction.

If he had no intention of putting it in the back hole, he shouldn’t have any intention of putting it in the mouth either. And if he treated me as a ‘hyung,’ this kind of act wasn’t right. Even if he could overlook sleeping in the same bed as a childish whim, wasn’t asking me to suck his cock a different matter altogether?

“Then what’s the problem?”

But Joo Do-hwa asked as if he couldn’t understand my hesitation. “Even if you’re a beta, your mouth still gets wet,” he said, seeming completely unaware of the contradiction in his own argument.

“With you, this kind of thing…”

“I think you forgot.”

So the moment I tried to give the answer of a ‘hyung’ once more, a low voice cut me off abruptly. Despite still being soft-spoken, his voice sounded threatening, having turned colder than before.

“You’re not the one who decides that.”

“…”

The way he addressed me changed to a formal “you.” He had no intention of making allowances. As soon as I realized that, I knelt down in front of him. There was no point in questioning further, as it would only dampen his mood, so for now, I had to at least pretend to play along.

“You made the right choice.”

I ignored the kind praise he offered. I simply swallowed the sigh that rose to my throat and reached out to his waist. My fingertips trembled strangely, even though this wasn’t the first time I’d been in a situation like this.

Around his waist, hidden by the vest, was a leather belt. The golden mark in the center was a brand I had seen when I went to the department store with him. There were products from the same brand hanging in my closet too.

Joo Do-hwa only observed my actions silently until I undid the belt and grabbed the buckle. However, when I hesitated while holding the zipper, he lightly urged me on by caressing my ear. It tickled so much that I couldn’t help but scrunch up my neck involuntarily. 

“…There you go again.”

A barely audible murmur descended above my head. I glanced up at Joo Do-hwa and then pulled down the zipper of his pants. With a zip, a small piece of black fabric became visible between the lowered garment.

“…”

There was no reason to suddenly get nervous, yet my mouth kept getting parched. It was even more so because the outline revealed through the thin underwear was different from the size I had imagined originally.

“Take it off the rest of the way.”

I was going to take it off even if you didn’t say so.

I retorted only in my mind and took a small, deep breath in secret. I wanted to ask again if I really had to do this, but if I did, it might dampen his mood this time for sure. So now, being obedient was the only viable option for me.

As I hooked my fingers on the waistband of his underwear and pulled it down, my childhood briefly came to mind. When we stayed at the villa, we often bathed together, so it wasn’t the first time I saw him naked. Maybe that was why doing this to him felt a bit…

“…”

Thud, the exposed penis touched the back of my hand. I went through the motions of undressing him and hesitated briefly. The moment the long thing was revealed between his pants, I moved my lips with my words stuck in my throat.

“…That.”

He wants me to put this…in my mouth right now?

“So…”

My voice trembled from being too flustered. Should I call it fear? My heart started pounding. I couldn’t hide how my half-resigned mind was suddenly overturned and agitated.

“Wait, hold on.”

It was such a huge thing that I couldn’t even grasp it with one hand. It was closer to a weapon than a dick, and even though it wasn’t erect yet, the size was enormous. It seemed like his dick  was so big that  it already got me thinking such thoughts.

“Do-hwa, this is something I…

“Hold on?”

I tried to persuade him somehow, but Joo Do-hwa laughed off my words as if it was out of the question. He lifted my chin with the hand that had been caressing my ear and pressed my cheeks tightly with his thumb and index finger. His golden eyes stared down at me intently.

“What are you saying after undressing me? How embarrassing.”

“…”

He said those detestable words with a face that didn’t know even hold the slightest hint of shame. His faintly smiling face was exceedingly bright, but his exposed lower half was so ominous that it felt repulsive. It wasn’t about the shape, but purely because of its length and thickness. 

“It’s not even hard yet.”

I could tell that much just by looking at it, which was why I was even more flustered. Because even if I somehow tried it now, my jaw might fall off once it became erect. I expected it to be big since he was an alpha, but I had no idea it would be to this extent.

“So make it hard to the best of your ability.”

“…”

I hesitated for a long time, but in the end, I had no other choice but to reach out to him. There was nowhere else to run anymore, and I couldn’t say I couldn’t do it now. No matter what I said, he wouldn’t listen, so it was better to just close my eyes tight and get it over with.

I timidly wrapped my palm around the thick shaft. The soft flesh showed that he wasn’t aroused at all. Still, it was the biggest thing I had ever seen, so I could fully understand how terrifying it was.

Joo Do-hwa lowered his eyes with an unimpressed face even as he watched me grab his thing. His gaze remained persistent as if observing, but it still didn’t suit this kind of act. I couldn’t understand his intentions. Why was he being so stubborn about this?

“It’s going to fall off.”

While I was lost in thought, a bored voice urged me quietly. As if telling me to stop staring and do it already, he tapped my cheek.

“Hurry up.”

“…”

This isn’t how you treat a ‘hyung.’

Instead of continuing to glare at him, I lightly stroked the limply hanging penis from top to bottom. His skin was originally pale, so this part wasn’t particularly dark either, but the repulsion from the size was unavoidable. The straight, stretched shaft with bulging glans at the bottom was obscene, apart from its shape.

It was an absurdly unreal scene. I couldn’t believe that I was kneeling in front of him, that his penis was in front of my eyes, or that the other person was that child from my childhood. Of course, the most unbelievable thing was how drastically different he looked compared to back then.

What if I throw up while doing it? Only then did such a worry occur to me. There hasn’t been a single time I haven’t gagged so far. If that happened this time too, it seemed like it would completely ruin Joo Do-hwa’s mood.

“…Whew.”

Joo Do-hwa didn’t point out the sigh I let out unintentionally. Instead, he just laughed lightly as if he found everything to be too amusing. I couldn’t delay any longer, so I opened my mouth first and brought it to the tip of the glans.